My Real First Touching Moment as an Auntie

I had my nephew Tristan the whole weekend and usually when he stays over with us he and I always have a little Tata and Tristan time. I try to see how he did through out the week at home and school, he tells me about moments with him and his brother that week, you know catch up and QT time. This weekend we didn't have our time until now and I love it so much it made me cry.

Ok Ok well I called down to spend time with me and he was just poutting around and wanted to go upstairs to play with his uncles. Then he said to me, "Why do you want me down here anyways?" and I told him I just wanted to spend some time with him before he goes home and he is still poutting and saying he wants to go upstairs. So I let him go because I know he is getting older and he wants to hang with his uncles to play games and watch sports but it scared me for a minute thinking he won't care about not having our time or my feelings.

I thought wrong. I don't know how he realized I was hurt and a little sad when he went upstairs but when he came back down to get something I was sitting at the corner of my bed, watching TV and brushing my hair, he comes up to me hugs me and says, "Sorry Tata for hurting your feelings, I just wanted to play the game. Do you want to come upstairs to play with us or do you just want me to watch TV with you and talk? I love you tata." and gives me my Incredible Hulk Hug. Then I just started crying because I was so touched. When he said that made me feel like I am doing my job to be the auntie they know loves them unconditionally. He knows I love him and now I know he know I love him.

Well I have to go he is waiting for me to play Wii with him.

January is almost over

So January is practically gone and I have no idea where it went. This is just telling me that time is flying by once again. Man the other night I had a dream that I was shopping and in all the stores they had Halloween decorations and I kept telling myself in the dream that Valentine's Day hasn't even passed yet. Then I woke up. What was the meaning of the dream I have no idea.

Anyways it has been a while since I've blogged, work in the beginning of this month was crazy and I actually took a short vacation to Vegas to visit one of my good friends , my God daughter and his family. That was a really relaxing and fun vacation, they let us stay at their house and man they are the most sweet, caring and hospitable people I know. I owe them big time. We spent our whole vacation with them but it was okay because who better to spend it with than with people you enjoy being around. So we went up there on Thursday 1/15 with the hubby, my BFF in the whole world Charles, my sister Judy and her family and my brother in-law. I think that we all needed to get away for a while.

So that Sunday we drove up to Mt. Charleston (30 mins away from Vegas) to go play in the snow because it was my God daughter's birthday and Jojo really wanted to see the snow. So we were having a really good time and started to take pictures. I was standing next to a tree taking a picture of my sister and her family and if you look at Jojo and hi dads eyes (in the picture below) they are looking at someone coming down their sled really fast, next thing you hear is "Ate/Jenn watch out!!!"

The guy ran into me from under my legs and I fell hard flat on my back. All the guys were looking for the guy who knocked me down but I told them to forget about it, it was an accident. I knew it was an accident and I thought the guy would at least come back from down hill and apologize but he didn't. I saw him and his friends and all they were doing was laughing. That was not very nice, which made the guys we were with even more mad. I just told them to let it go since I was okay plus they were kids around. Well I thought that I was okay because I didn't feel a thing when I got hit come to find out an hour later my back and left shoulder blade area was killing me. I guess I has so much adrenaline from the excitement that I didn't feel it. So up to Tuesday when we left Vegas my back was swollen and in pain. I finally went to the ER last week and they said that a muscle was pulled and inflamed. Now I have to take meds. =( At least I didn't break anything so I am happy about that. I really hope that guy is careful next time especially when kids are playing and sledding in the snow. Oh and if I wasn't standing where I was he would have ran straight into the tree. Lucky for him I was there. Jason was up the hill when it happened and he came running down to me but he slipped and almost knocked me down again. My crazy husband.

Other than that incident the vacation was great and I have no broken bones. This is my start to staying positive. =) Here are a few pics from Vegas. Til next time.

Happy New Year

Happy New Years fellow bloggers. It is a new year and I am leaving everything stressful from 2008 in 2008. I woke up with such a great attitude yesterday and felt like I had no worries in the world. I thank the lord for all the blessings in 2008. I wonder what he has in store for me this year. Whatever it is good or bad I know he will get me through it. It all just depends will I be able to handle it, with his guidance I know I can. So HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL and we will just have to wait and see how 2009 goes.

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Today is Christmas Eve and I wish I can say it will be a happy one. On Monday my cousin got into a severe car accident. The person was speeding and ran the red light and hit him on the driver side. The driver was trying to run away but the witnesses were stopping him from running. Thank God my cousin is alive but is severely hurt. He has 10 broken ribs and a fractured pelvic bone. He has to go through surgery but is waiting till his swelling goes down. So the purpose of this blog is to ask all of you to keep him in your prayers, that he gets through this tough time and has a successful surgery.

Also everyone please be safe when you travel or even drive a block away. You never know if there are drunk drivers out there and I am sure there will be. Besides this I hope all of you have a very Merry Christmas and again be safe.

What a Week

Well today is Monday and man I feel so drained. Maybe the reason is I didn't get a full weekends rest. Last week there were a couple of days we were busy and those were the days we didn't have a floater and people called in sick. So trying to multi-task when you are feeling under the weather is not a good thing. Then I call in sick on Friday because I slipped down the stairs again in my apt. complex. So my tailbone and back is killing me. Then on Sunday I had to work. I am thankful that I still have a job but man this place is not the same and I feel it is taking a toll on me. This job is not hard but the people here are very demanding. I am glad that this week is a short week.

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Okay I've been meaning to start blogging about happy things because, man as I am going back and reading my blogs they seem a little depressing and down. I mean it helps me release my inner feelings but come on now I know my life is not that bad. I just stress too much.

Anyways, my BFF calls me back today after I left her a message on Monday and we chit chat a while and we rarely talk or see each other. So I ask her how my God son's bithday was and she said that they really didn't do much, that they went bowling and it was really last minute planning. So I was okay but mind you no matter how short of a notice something is she always usually tells me. Then she tells me that she is back with her ex-boyfriend. So that said everything to me. Then when I look at her myspace picture there was a lot of people at my God son's birthday. That really hurt my feelings.

There is more to this but I will try to make it brief. Everytime she breaks up with someone or if she has problems of course she turns to me and I know that is what Best Friends are for but why is it that when I have a problem she doesn't have time for me. I know friends have their own lives, they may not talk to each other all the time or even see each other but when they do it is like time they've seen each other just the other day. I guess I am feeling really hurt. I mean I go out of my way for her. When she was sad I put some time aside just to keep her mind off things, when she was hungry while she was at work I would stop by and bring her some dinner, if she felt like getting away I would gather all the girls and have a girls night out. Mainly if she needed me I am always there for her. I think it is when she has a BF she totally forgets about me. This has been going on for years and I've talked to her about me feeling like I am being used but it has never changed and in my heart if someone needs help or is down and they turn to me I can never deny them. My heart always tells me to help them out. Jason is always asking me or should I say telling me that "You always help everyone when they need you but why is it that when you need them they are not around." I jokingly reply with "I don't need them because I have you babe." but he knows that is a lie because he knows that sometimes my friends fill a part of me that is missing. I don't know if that makes sense.

I have a place for everyone in my heart but sometimes when you are let down so much you don't want to have to deal with that person. So I have decided that I am not going to stress myself out with this I just needed to vent. I have my God, my Jason, my family and my other lovely friends. This might have been pointless but typing out all my feelings on this situation helped me a lot. So I am very sorry if this seemed really pointless.

Wonderful Weekend

This past weekend was I weekend I really needed to get me through this week. So as some of you may know every weekend and I mean every weekend we have one or two of my nephews, if I am lucky I will have all 3 of my nephews and my niece one day. I just love having them around because I love kids. Well anyways this weekend we had my nephew Jojo and man was he the sweetest toddler you could ever imagine.

So he was dropped off Friday night to Jason and I love coming home on Fridays when the kids come running for me and say, "Hi Tata I missed you" =) but this past Friday I had a better greeting Jojo came running and said, "Hi my best Tata, how's work, I missed you did you miss me?" For a 3 yr old boy to ask me how's work and my husband rarely asks me that shocked me but it made my night. So I got comfortable, started to play with Jojo and out of no where he just hugs and kisses me and says, "Tata I love you, your the best." That made me feel so loved and I just replied back that I loved him and that he is my best Jojo, then he said thanks. LOL

Saturday morning comes we wake up and Jojo rubs my face, says good morning and when I opened my eyes to say good morning back he had the sweetest smile. I was still feeling a little tired so I asked if I can turn the TV on for him and sleep for another 15 mins he says, "Tata I will sleep with you but can I sleep in your arms?" Of course I said yes, so as we are laying down I was hugging him and he looks at me and tells me he loves me again. Then we are all getting ready but as I was getting ready I was feeling really ugly and told Jason how I felt. Jojo sitting on the bed playing the Nintendo DS, me thinking he wouldn't pay attention to what Jason and I are talking about says, "Tata you are not ugly, you are beautiful and you are the best. I am not going to call you ugly because I love you." Man Jojo was full of so much love and he gave me a lot of it.
I know kids can be kids and Jojo does have his moments but he can be the most sweetest polite little 3 yr old you can ever meet.

Then Sunday we visited one of my close friends Ro =) to see her and the kids and to finally see my little Destiny in person which also made my day. Mari was crying and Jojo just rubs her head and says, "It's okay, when I was a baby I use to cry all the time." It was so cute and funny because first he was a baby not too long ago and second we was crying maybe 20 mins prior to Mari crying. So yes I got to see my friend and her kids which I love very much. I really needed to see her because I haven't seen her since her baby shower and she is pretty much my rock at work. So seeing her made me feel like everything is going to be okay. Yes Ro you know how much I appreciate your guidance and friendship and how much I miss you girl. Then we left and had to bring Jojo home. He was sleeping when we dropped him off but when he woke up he was crying for me and gets my sisters cell phone and calls me (I am on her speed dial) to tell me he loves me and wants to go back to my house. I felt so bad but I calmed him down and told him that I will see him again on Friday and he was okay.

I am sorry this is long but I want to be able to go back and read all the sweet things that Jojo does because he is the best Jojo.